Let no one Suffer Like me and my Son - Back to Idolatry
“Formerly, when you did not know God, you were slaves to those who by nature are not Gods – Gal 4:8 (NIV)”
I hurried from India to USA on 27th September 2000 to see my ailing son and to be with him in the time of his distress. When I saw my son on 29th midnight in the ICU ward, I was really torn to
pieces. I pray that no father or mother should ever see his or her son in such a pathetic, horrible and pitiable condition. He blinked lifelessly, his left side totally paralyzed, not able to speak, memory totally lost, very lean and thin, half of his hair in the head shaved off to do the surgery and a bandage in the head with a tube coming through the head draining out some fluid from the brain and countless tubes fitted every where in his body and his life line being monitored round the clock by a computer. He was practically sinking. He was in the last leg of his life. The doctors were not able to give any hope to me for his survival. They simply said – Pray to God. When I saw my son’s hopeless and precarious condition, I had no other go but to fall again at the feet of those idol gods and pray to them again to forgive my foolishness of breaking their pictures in anger and requested them to save my son at any cost. With tears rolling down my cheeks, I used to chant many manthras seeking mercy from all the gods from morning to evening. I used to chant Kandha sasti kavasam, 108, 1008 Om Sakthi manthras, then Sivaaya Manthra and then Miruthunjeya Manthra i.e. life saving manthra, then Vazhga Vaghamudan mantra by Vedathri Maharishi. Days after days, weeks after weeks, I was chanting these manthras and praying to all the Hindu gods I knew with tears and broken heart. There used to be Satya Sai Baba bhajan on every Thursday, in one of the South Indians’ house in Portland and I used to attend that bhajan regularly seeking Baba’s healing touch on my son. There they gave me the sacred ash brought out through miracle by Sathya Sai Baba and the sacred water blessed by Baba. I applied that sacred ash on the fore head of my son and poured a few drops of the holy water into the mouth of my son thinking that it will heal him completely. I had pasted the photo of Baba in the ICU ward of my son believing that it will ward off the demon of sickness from my son. Sai Baba’s disciples told that if I read the life history of Shirdy Sai Baba (the previous avatar of Satya Sai Baba) within one week with a prayer request, it will be blessed by Baba. I read it with tears and prayers in four days time to save the life of my son. But nothing happened.
S. THAYAPPAN 17 All the manthras I was chanting, all the gods whom I was worshiping and all the prayers I was making with full heart, soul and tears did not heal my son. Instead his condition was going from bad to worse. He was practically sinking, dying and his pulses were going down.