How Could the Once Hated Christianity Became the Much Loved
It is God who works in you to will and to act according to His good purpose – Phi 2:13 (NIV)”
One day I was recapitulating as to how my hatred towards Christianity and Jesus Christ since childhood had disappeared and the love for Christ and His Way had bloomed in me. What exactly had transpired or attracted me towards Christianity? Which one truly prompted me to interchange my hatred for love? I sank deep into the bottom of my mind in introspection and analyzed to find out the answer. It was true that I was greatly disappointed and annoyed with all the (so called) Hindu Gods for allowing such a deadly disease to come upon my son and for not saving him from coma and paralysis. But that disappointment and annoyance alone could not have been the cause for changing my hatred towards
S. THAYAPPAN 27 Christianity to a love for it. Because Hindu religion, its culture, traditions, belief and rituals were of very great values to me and they were very deeply assimilated into my blood stream. My liking and leaning towards Hinduism was not borne out of my having been born in a Hindu family and background. I had in fact loved Hindu religion and admired it. I was rather proud to be a Hindu. I used to sing devotional songs on the deities of Murugan and Adhi Parasakthi and other Hindu gods/goddesses from the bottom of my heart with tears rolling down my cheeks and with true devotion and dedication. I had even done a devotional musical concert to raise funds to conduct the wedding of daughter of a temple priest in Delhi. I had also practiced transcendental meditation and kundalini yoga. After reading many Hindu Vedas, Upanishads and religious books, I thought I was fully convinced that Hindu religion was a meaningful religion. How could a man with such a background and knowledge about Hinduism ever change his opinion and concept about Christianity and Christ?
I am not boasting of myself. It is not really easy to convince me on anything as I had a probing mind not to believe anything on the face of it. I always asked what, why and how to believe anything. I am a counter-intelligence trained person in the Indian Air Force and the first lesson taught to us was not to believe anything unless it was thoroughly analyzed and evidenced. Nothing escaped from my sight and observation. My assessment and opinion on many issues also do not go wrong. 38 years of my versatile career in HRD, administration, personnel management, security, intelligence, counter-intelligence, insurance, marketing, art and cultural fields had groomed me well in individual and mass psychology. All these experiences and exposures had sharpened my mental alertness, focus, thinking and analytical powers. With the backdrop of these facts, I tried to analyze deeply with an open unbiased mind, the lives of all those Indo-American Christians who were known to me.