Section 9
From my experience I can testify that the most difficult thing in our Christian life is to practice to live Christ. We may be "holy," "spiritual," and "victorious" without living Christ. Even though we may be "holy," "spiritual," and "victorious," we are still the ones living our natural life. We are not living Christ.
By nature, I am a quick person. When my sis ter heard that I had turned to the Lord, she was happy and wanted to help me. In particular, she tried to help me with my natural quickness. She would not rebuke me or correct me. Instead, she would tell me about others who were slow in their speech and behavior. Realizing what she was trying to do, I told the Lord that I regretted my quickness and asked Him to enable me to slow down. But my behavior was like that of a monkey imitating a human being. Although I could deliberately be slow for a few days, even tually I reverted to my natural quickness. Because I had been born a quick person, I just could not make myself slow down. At the time my sister tried to help me, she was teaching me to be slow. But she did not help me to live Christ. Now, more than fifty years later, I can be slow and patient. I can also control my temper. In a sense, I can be holy, spiritual, and victorious. But I have come