Section 10
I believed in Him heartily; but I had never seen Him. Had I perhaps come under the influence of men? How could I love someone I had never seen? How could I believe in someone my eyes had never beheld? I began to doubt.
But the astonishing thing was this—just as I was questioning, I fell on my knees and prayed, "O Lord Jesus, You are too good; You are too lov able; You are too trustworthy." And even while I was kneeling in prayer, this mind of mine was still saying, "Perhaps I've been deceived. Where is Jesus? Have you ever seen Him?" But, all the while my mind was questioning, my heart was saying, "O Lord Jesus, how I thank You! You died for me on the cross, and now You are in heaven as my Mediator, and Your Holy Spirit is within me." Just see those two streams of life—the outer man doubting, the inner man praying! Is it not surprising that often both of these experiences are simultaneous?
Now, why have I spent so much time elabo rating this one point? So that God's children may see that in all His intercourse with us, in all His activity in our lives, His ways are in keeping with His disposition. Just as we, in our intercourse with our friends, inevitably act in accordance with our dispositions, so God, in all His relations